Winning

I did quite well today. I am quite confused about how well. I do not understand it all, but I am willing to follow. I am thinking about whether it is possible to love without pain. I am thinking about grace and truth and love. I am thinking about being willing to do what God has asked me to do. I am thinking about the oddity of my life. I am way overthinking the color of the pillows I buy the next time I go to Target. After I am done posting here, I am going to so look at what they have online. Never mind, going to do that before I finish here…

Yeah, I probably should go to Bed, Bath & Beyond.

Yes, my life is good. My apartment is clean and beautiful. Almost clean. I have a lot of friends. I love my life. I am leaning into the advice a veteran believer told me earlier this week, “Just because it doesn’t look like you are winning, don’t assume you aren’t.” I have quit assuming I am losing or am doing something wrong. It is changing my day. If my day is changed, my week will be changed. If my week is changed, my month will be changed. If my month is changed… You see where this is going.

I am going to go look at Bed, Bath & Beyond a minute.

Yeah, so the much better choice. I better go to bed. I am so going to regret shopping for pillows at night else. When did I start caring about the color of pillows???

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. – Matthew 6:33